i'm feeling down!!!!!!

i am so so the down these few daysss =(

haha...it seems like i kena rasuk like that...aihzzzzz...
anyway....i have a valid reason for feeling down...not feeling down for no reason...

hmm...leng knows this...haha...
a very good fren of mine has lost his mum a couple weeks or months back...wasn't that sure bout it....
anyway...he was avoiding all of us at first and what i had in my mind was just giving him his own space/time...
i did not take any initiative to call nor msg him to send my condolences.....
and finally i manage to bump into him with leng and some of my other extended family recently...
he talks alot that night and well...it's obvious for me that he's trying so hard to hide his sadness and trying to act super cool...
but due to all his actions...i was hurt deep down inside...damn 'sam thung' seeing him acting this way...

haha...and guess due to it i did scold/lost my temper to andy when he was playing with my handphone case...
haha...sorry ya Dee Dee...but don think he reads this blog...and er...i malas wan to bring this up again la...so i just act stupid n forget this incident with dee dee =( i damn bad hor...

anyway...i was damn sad and seriously no mood and wanted to cry...haha....damn silly la me...
so i did find my favourite person that i can talk to...haha...my second actually...my favourite person too busy d...so don wan to kacau him...
i told him bout the whole guilty thingy for not being at there for fit (the friend that lost his mum recently)...
i know that he had lots of family problems but did not bother to ask him what's happening and so..
and when that night fit told all of us...i was like blank....trying my best to hold my tears...

oooo......fit also make me realise that there's alot of things happening around us...
and from there...i know that i'm real lucky to have such a great bunch of frenz....
from what i heard about his frenz...i felt that my frenz are the best among the best...
yessss...we do have ur own up and downs...but the great bunch of frenz which is also known as my extended family always be truthful to each other and open up to everyone of us...
yesss...our bond is stronger day by day as for all of us are feeling more comfortable with each other and we really trust each other...
haha....guess i'm all out of topic d.....hmmm...i think i shall post bout my extended family soon...haha...

the conclusion is that.....the person that i talked to adviced me to tell my feeling out to fit and i did...
haha...so everything is fine now...i told fit that i was really sad and guilty....and what he replied me was really comforting...
haha...he's always be the one who comfort me since form 1...aihz.....i should be the one who's comforting him now....but ended up terbalik...

as a lesson...we must appreciate everything we have and dont take anything for granted...
and we have to keep in touch and update with our loves one including frenz always...
so i just wanna say....

I LOVE ALL OF U GUYS!!!!!!!!
the 4 other ding dongs (the cutie jean, the lovely leng, the sweetie kim and the funny mich)
and not to forget ronnie and vince as well...hmmm....i donno why i always include both of them...
haha...they seems to have bounded into our ding dong group...well...i don care...
I LOVE U GUYSSSS!!!!!!

MUACKSSSSSSSSS n HUGSSSSSSSSS